6.25.2009

It's kind of disgusting

How boys will lead you on for their amusement, make you believe that they love you, and then drop you in an instant if they find someone better (or more amusing). Or if they decide they just don't want to expend the effort anymore.
I've also found that a lot of guys fall in love with an idea, especially when they're far away from you. Suddenly all of your faults disappear and all they can think about or focus on is this perfect ideal they've made of you, and how much they want you and can't have you. Absence makes the heart grow fonder I suppose, but it's not realistic. It's just another form of idol worship.
It's so strange how girls will pine away for weeks after the end of a relationship and most guys are out that night, pretending it never happened. 
I guess I'm a little jealous. Being emotionally invested never seems to pay out in the end but I can't pretend like other people that I'm perfectly fine. I've never fit into our culture of denial or approved of it. 
My mom always told me, it's ok to cry. 
I'm figuring this out as I go along.

4 comments:

  1. Did you look at the link I posted on your myspace? I think at least half of them thoroughly relate to you.

    http://17.media.tumblr.com/BAxQAJRP8etx48xcVhE8MQFno1_500.jpg

    http://4.media.tumblr.com/BAxQAJRP8fgggct8SMFgxmGpo1_500.jpg

    http://23.media.tumblr.com/BAxQAJRP8gjmdjf867llQyzdo1_500.jpg

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  2. Also, http://11.media.tumblr.com/BAxQAJRP8gxoogczu7NDXeMWo1_500.jpg

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  3. Yeah, that's messed up. I've seen it happen in the opposite end of the spectrum as well though.
    It's true about absence though. I suppose it can be a good thing sometimes, but I've never thought about it in a negative way before.
    Maybe it depends on the severity and the manner in which you are thinking of the person. Maybe small doses is the answer... I'm just thinking out loud as I type. These things get me thinking.

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  4. yes, thank you hunter, i had a hard time picking just one. =)
    and true. girls can be horrible too but i haven't had as much experience with them. well, none. haha.

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