Hold onto this.

Today was such an amazing day, and to think I wasn't going to come. I need to force myself to do more things.

Something about the ocean makes me feel completely at peace. It batters you and takes it out of you and throws jellyfish near you and makes you squeal and run away (haha, HUNTER. You make me happy).

I love getting hit by the waves and diving under them and lifting my body to go along with them. I love salt in my mouth and sand sticking to me and seaweed flowers. I think some part of me remembers my mother rocking me in the waves in Key West and it still makes me feel at ease. My skin is burnt and red but I feel purified. I don't know if I've posted the dolphin picture before but I'll do it again. I need to go through the photo vaults before I leave and get as many pictures as possible.

I love Savannah. We have the same brain waves, only she's really good at channeling mine into good directions. I can only hope I make her as happy as she makes me.

You saved my life.

I feel like a fresh start. I need to hold onto this day and remember it when I feel like dying and wallowing in my own grief. I think I will.