bad news.

6:38 pm

m: i wish we could be friends. i miss talking to you.

a: maybe. i think our friendship would be pretty unfair.

m: how so?

a: well. the only way i wouldn't be upset all the time is if you were never interested in anyone else. and i would probably want to sleep with you still. and i still like doing romantic nice things for people, but i have no one to do them for anymore. so sometimes i would want to do that for you, but then sometimes not. i think it would be hard on you.

m: the only reason i would agree to that would be because i would think it was another chance to prove myself to you. but i'm pretty sure you've already written me off.

a: some days i've written you off. other days, like today, i wished i could spend it near you.

8:52 pm

m: i think we should be friends. if we choose to complicate it with sex i only ask that you use a condom or remain exclusive to me. we won't make any plans. if either of us finds someone else we have to be mature about it.

and that's that i guess.

i know this is probably going to end badly if you agree to it, but i would rather be hurt by having you in my life, than be hurt from missing you.

think about it. you don't have to answer now.

a: okay. i'll think about it.

this is going to end badly

i'm going to get hurt

you know you can't function like this

you know you're going to get your hopes up

and have them brutally crushed when he finds someone else.

used empty shell of a girl.

they always leave me behind.