"your husbands last words to you were mazeltov"

the locket around your neck is empty. why does my heart feel so full when I'm near you. 

i need to remind myself this is who you really are.

"That gives me some sort of solace in my situataion. Im sorry it had it had to happen to you like that. He told one of my good friends he couldnt fuck me because i was his (my friends) girl (not true, i was just this dudes friend) then proceeded to talk to me at lamplighter. And he met up with me late one night to "take a walk" after i got off of 821 and i was whisky drunk. So we went to byrd park and he wiuldnt let me keep walking till i kissed him. Then eventually he glt to a spot tk sit and aggressively got me on top of him and started to feel me up/ put my hand on his dick and forcibly fingerd me without consent in the middlenof a public space. He also took advantage of me in my own bed after i told him specifically i didnt want to do anything sexual because i just got my medusa pierced and it was swollen and hurt.

I feel silly for thinking that these things werent rigbt because i have a hard time saying otherwise when im in those situations. But he made me feel very disgusting and everything in my own bed and it caused me massive anxiety/regret. I felt the need to say somethin."

wandering through a wasteland of my own bullshit.